| i'll be your valentine if you'll be mine. |
[Feb. 9th, 2010|08:04 pm] |
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Okay. no more emo! my birthday wish is to be happy forever and ever! okay luh. marcus neo is nice.
frolick with retainees today. bumped into raiz, joey, rama, ian and caught them buying my present. its really um nice. love you guys to the max. train home with jervin.
tomorrow is gonna be awesome. i think i'll pon math lecture. hahahha. shit coolz. training tmr. yay. NYJC on friday! best! than cny! woohoo!
i feel so smart suddenly cause i know how to do questions in class.
i don't wanna be kinda legal. wheres the fun in drinking when your legal? no thrill sian.
i feel really emo nowadays. i don't know why. its like sudden. i feel like i did it all for nothing. my love was in vain. whats the point in doing so much when you'll be getting nothing in the end? i don't get it. i really don't. it seems like you don't lose anth but in fact you lose everything. i guess i'm being childish. i keep holding on to the lil memories cause i'm scared, scared that when i let it go there'll be nothing connecting us together anymore. But when i see you i know i have to let you go cause it is the right thing to do. but sometimes, having the courage to do the right thing is really hard. But i have to stop torturing myself.
ps. will you be my valentine? please?
pps. Happy Birthday to me. i hope something really special happens tmr but i doubt it. |
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[Feb. 8th, 2010|07:41 pm] |
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you know. buying a cake for myself. well not entirely true since my parents paid for it but whatever. well as i was saying buying a cake for myself cause i want to celebrate with all my friends and not choose afew cause its really hard to choose. i have a clique but i'm not close to them and i grew closer to the retainees so how? who to choose? invite everyone lor. and i'm not, as marcus puts it, a shameless bitch who buys her own cake. i just want to ease the burden of my friends so that they can celebrate without wrecking their brains whether if they should come without giving me a present. when i first thought of ordering the cake i was like damn excited luh. i mean spend the day with all my friends. cool! the shameless bitch part didn't even occur untill fucker marcus neo said it. maybe i'm too naive. i mean ordercake- spend time with friends- everyone happy. isint that what a birthday should be all about? seriously. if i knew ppl actually thought that way i wouldnt even have bothered. wtf. i don't give a shit anymore.
to this bitch stop compeiting with alina and me luh. we don't even want to compete with you. but if you do all i can say is bring it on bitch. i'm not scared of you. i don't even know why you bother? he's not even your friend. fuck off.
i'm suppose to be excited. i'm suppose to be happy. But i;m not. I'm kind of dreading the day now. i hope you all don't make me hate my birthday please.
i made a new china friend. his name is ren long. he's nice:]
ps. i'm not expecting any presents. i'm in tpjc hello? looking at tpjcians i know not to get my hopes too high. better not hope at all. |
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[Feb. 7th, 2010|05:47 pm] |
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AHHHHHHHH. I AM SO PISSED RIGHT NOW. MY TIMETABLE IS ABSOLUTE RUBBISH. FUCK. IT ENDS DAMN LATE EVERYDAY.
AND ON FRIDAY I ONLY HAVE TWO LESSONS ONE FROM10 TO 11. THE OTHER FROM 2.30 TO 4. WTF. I CAN JUST TOTALLY PON THE FIRST ONE THAN COME FOR THE SECOND ONE ONLY! I'M SO PISSED. CCA HOWWW? DOESNT IT START AT 3.30?
ON THE OTHER HAND. MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING! I ORDERED A 3.5KG CAKE. ALL ARE WELCOME. 2.30 AT THE CANTEEN ON WED THANKS. SHIT. SHOULD I UPGRADE THE CAKE TO 4KG? HAHAHA. ITS LIKE DAMN EX LUH. 3.5KG ALR LIKE AROUND 150 BUCKS. HAHAHA. PRESENTS ARE APPRECIATED. BUT IF YOU DON'T I'LL STILL LOVE YOU. HAHAHAHA. MY CAKE IS A CAREBEAR! WELL LOTS OF CAREBEARS! COOL. HAHAHAH.
OMG. CB. I'M STILL PISSED AT MY TIMETABLE. WHAT THE FUCK. SERIOUSLY. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH:( I'M SO GOING TO COMPLAIN.
PS. I LIKE YOU. BUT LIKE IS NOT LOVE AND LOVE IS NOT LIKE. SO HOW?
PSS. NO MATTER WHAT PPL SAY I STILL THINK I'M LIKE DAMN CUTE. THANKS;] |
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| Since you've been gone. |
[Feb. 5th, 2010|11:59 pm] |
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tiger ftw!!
this week has been a blur. all i can say is retainees ftw! my class sucks. 10S20. fuck. 7 ppl from china. wtf. ahhhhhhh. 3 malays, i indian. i can celebrate racial harmony day alr! whoopee. but no indian can beat rama. he's my bff! hahahha. the thing is, although i don't really have ppl i can chill with i don't feel like changing classes at all. i mean whats the point? sigh. tennis is the only thing that brightens up my day now. i don't want the j2s to goooooooo!!
i think my mind can take the hurt so it has shut down. No matter how much i try to recall you, i cant! memories of you have like just been shoved and buried somewhere i cant find. The six months feel like a dream. did it even happen at all? Fate sometimes make me feel like a fool waiting for something to happen. i'm just grateful i have my friends. I just want to celebrate my birthday with them. Nothing more.
Gareth's birthday is TODAY!!!!!!
i feel rather thoughtful today.
ps. i think i'm damn cute luh. ahahha.
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